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Artist Takes A Different Drug Every Day And Draws A Self-Portrait Under The Influence, Suffers Brain Damage (30 Pics)

In March 1995, artist Bryan Lewis Saunders made a promise to himself to create a new self-portrait every day for the rest of his life. To this day, he has kept this promise; Saunders has made nearly 12,400 of them.

While this alone sounds like quite the experiment, in 2000, he set out to create an even more radical subseries within the project. The artist painted tens of self-portraits whilst being on mind-altering drugs, and so, "Under The Influence" was born.

Within weeks, he became lethargic and suffered mild brain damage. Saunders even became a frequent guest at the hospital. Nevertheless, he continued drawing. The artist sought "experiences that might profoundly affect his perception of self" and when you see just how different each of the drawings from "Under The Influence" is, you can't help but think he succeeded. Saunders said the brain damage resulted in "psychomotor retardation and confusion," but at least it was repairable. He's still conducting this experiment, but over greater lapses of time; though now he only takes drugs that are prescribed to him by a doctor.

Now have a look at the cool art, but don't try this at home.

More info: bryanlewissaunders.org | Instagram

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Psilocybin Mushrooms (2 Caps Onset)

Psilocybin Mushrooms (2 Caps Onset)

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Molly Block 1 year ago

Ohh yeeahhhhhhhh! Can concur too.

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"The drug series itself began in 2000 when I moved into an 11-story building with the idea that I would make a documentary on all of the interesting characters there," Saunders told Bored Panda in a statement. "The building is well-known in Johnson City for its creeps and loonies."

After moving in, however, a really difficult period in the artist's life postponed the series. One of his good friends died in a fire, another tried to shoot himself in the head but ended up with brain damage and permanent confusion, and while he was still in the hospital, Saunders's lung collapsed.

#2 

Ativan / Haloperidol (Doseage Unknown In Hospital)

Ativan / Haloperidol (Doseage Unknown In Hospital)

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Petra Christovová 1 year ago

I do not get the fuss here (Bored Panda readers being offended by everything as usual .. :/) This is a psychoactive chemical substance too and if the artist had the opportunity to put in in the list as experiment, why not? The portrait has interesting informational value, he probably did not feel whole, like something is missing in his mind?

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To unwind, he went hiking with his buddy Brandon Bragg, something Saunders hadn't done before. "It was incredible," he said. "I had 5 pounds of art supplies with me! Every day, I saw tons of beautiful things in nature. I'm from the city and so every new kind of bark I saw, or toadstool, or wild animal gave me such a rich wealth of phenomena to draw and see myself in a totally different world. That experience was truly miraculous and healing. (To this day, that book is my favorite of all of the self-portrait books.) ... While Brandon and I were hiking one day, he asked me, 'Whatever happened with that documentary you were going to make with the veterans and the loonies?' And I told him how everything had happened so fast with the tragedies and how I thought the people would be really interesting to document, but in fact they were all on drugs, suffering in solitude, some too obese to physically leave their apartment, and for many, it was all they could do to get out of their recliners 3 times a day. I told him how when I first moved in, a paraplegic in a wheelchair showed me an encyclopedia of pills and said he could find at least one of every kind of pill in that book in the building and that book was huge."

#3 

Alcohol

Alcohol

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When Saunders and Bragg got back to NY, the artist unknowingly became very dehydrated, started hallucinating, and had a psychotic break during which he ditched his friend at a monastery because he thought he was trying to poison him. "I took the Greyhound straight back to Tennessee, where I had an epiphany. I thought, not only am I going to draw myself every day, but I'm also going to do a different drug every day. After all, there was one of everything in the building... And that was when I officially started the project." It was a combination of dark sadness and easy access that led Saunders to satisfy his drive to experience as many different things as possible.

#4 

Marijuana (G13)

Marijuana (G13)

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He said the images first went viral in January 2011, and it was "excruciatingly distressing and morbidly terrifying." Saunders got quite a few hate mails. "They either wanted me to commit suicide myself, or they themselves wanted the honor of putting me down like an animal. Sleazy companies came out of the woodwork too," he recalled. "This time around it's been so much nicer and friendlier."

But the popularity of this one experiment is pretty big. "It gives people an opportunity to discover some of the other things I do or have done as well. Things that I feel are a lot more important, both socially and artistically. And it's also opened the door to communicate with some other incredible people who feel that they are alone in the world, and in one way or another are suffering and having trouble. I'm older and like to think I can be of some help in that department."

For more on Saunders and his work, check out his book.

#5 

Morphine IV (Doseage Unknown)

Morphine IV (Doseage Unknown)

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Molly Block 1 year ago

WOW!! Amazing. Is that pencil and watercolor????

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LSD

LSD

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Blue 1 year ago

That is utterly terrifying

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#7 

1 sm Glass Of Absinth

1 sm Glass Of Absinth

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Monty Is Fiennes 1 year ago

Absinth was disappointing...esp. when I realised what it tasted like....

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#8 

20mg Valium

20mg Valium

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Monty Is Fiennes 1 year ago

relaxed...then sleepy...

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#9 

Abilify / Xanax / Ativan (Dosage Unknown In Hospital)

Abilify / Xanax / Ativan (Dosage Unknown In Hospital)

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chrissy 1 year ago

this ones actualyy pretty good

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#10 

Bath Salts

Bath Salts

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Opium

Opium

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Louis Hale 1 year ago

Makes me wonder what, if anything, other famous artists might have been on

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#12 

4mg Dilaudid

4mg Dilaudid

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Blinding_Darkness 1 year ago

Omg so this is what melting on the couch looks like! I'm gonna go tell my brother he's been doing it wrong. XD

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#13 

2 Bottles Of Cough Syrup

2 Bottles Of Cough Syrup

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LittleMissLotus 1 year ago

wait... did he literally USE SOME OF THE COUGH SYRUP TO PAINT?

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#15 

1/2 Gram Cocaine

1/2 Gram Cocaine

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Bharathi Raja 1 year ago

This looks like a wild dream. There's a Jet Ski and he's been doing mathematical calculations too!

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#16 

DMT (During And After)

DMT (During And After)

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Shinobi Shabby 1 year ago

Everything that we experience, and everything that we not capable of experiencing... damn that deep

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#17 

90mg Abilify (After 3 Months Usage 3x Maximum Dose)

90mg Abilify (After 3 Months Usage 3x Maximum Dose)

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Louis Hale 1 year ago

A visually interesting interpretation, but very scary understanding

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#18 

1 Shot Of Dilaudid / 3 Shots Of Morphine (In The ER With Kidney Stones)

1 Shot Of Dilaudid / 3 Shots Of Morphine (In The ER With Kidney Stones)

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EmiC _21 1 year ago

cool drawing wtf kidney stones?!?! why is he still doing this?!?!?!?!

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#19 

Khat (Chew And Tea)

Khat (Chew And Tea)

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Monty Is Fiennes 1 year ago

Like the painting....

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#20 

10mg Ambien

10mg Ambien

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MustardLemon 1 year ago

Wait is that supposed to be his arm or someone else's??

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#21 

3mg Klonopin

3mg Klonopin

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Monty Is Fiennes 1 year ago

Hhahahhhahahaha...

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#22 

Marijuana Resin

Marijuana Resin

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Blinding_Darkness 1 year ago

Haha I love the bent paperclip over his face 🤣

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#23 

Carbon Monoxide Inhalation

Carbon Monoxide Inhalation

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Vincent Philippart 1 year ago (edited)

Carbon monoxyde inhalation? WTF, this is so dangerous

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#24 

Celexa (Dosage Unknown)

Celexa (Dosage Unknown)

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Lady Snowfall 1 year ago

He must have taken a crap ton, cuz Celexa is a very mild anti-anxiety drug.

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#25 

15mg Buspar (Snorted)

15mg Buspar (Snorted)

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#26 

1 "Bump" Of Crystalmeth

1 "Bump" Of Crystalmeth

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Jeff Diamond 1 year ago

GET THESE BEES OUT OF MY TEETH!

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Pcp

Pcp

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Heroin (Snorted)

Heroin (Snorted)

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Jill Ferguson 1 year ago

Who knew H makes you grow an elephant nose?

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#29 

Huffing Lighter Fluid

Huffing Lighter Fluid

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Huffing Gas (During And After)

Huffing Gas (During And After)

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